Current mood:	enthralled
Entry tags:	olimpia valley, soul mates

The Rough & Smooth
I had a bad day yesterday. I sat down to write and nothing came. That's the first time I've ever sat down at the desk and not had some kind of idea of what needed to be written. Even when I sit down and have no idea something always appears when I start tapping the keys. Not so yesterday. It was scary. It was upsetting. But I told myself to be calm, walk away and come back to it later. So I did. And I managed to get three paragraphs down that time. I know three paragraphs doesn't sound like a lot but when the alternative is nothing I'll take the three.

Not surprisingly, I came to the desk today with anticipation. I put it off, put it off, writing in my diary first, always finding something else to write. When I did open up the document I worried the same thing would happen again but this time I at least have a loose idea of what was about to happen. I started slowly, one paragraph at a time until I got completely submerged in the story and forgot to draw breath. Nine pages later (5,000+ words), I stopped, looked up from the screen and realised I was finished for the day.

I quickly scribbled down what will happen next to close the chapter and then saved the document.

So although yesterday was probably my worst ever day for writing, today was one of the better ones. I'd forgotten how rough the bad days can be. I've been blessed with good days so often lately. But "Olimpia Valley" always brings out the worst. I can't decide why that is. Is the story too big for me? Do I just worry more about it because it's out of my comfort zone? Or is just because "Soul Mates" flows out of me like a ribbon whereas every other story needs more of a push, and, "Olimpia Valley" being a big story, like "Soul Mates", I suppose subconsciously I might be comparing the two and finding my talent and skill coming up short. I don't know what it is; I just hope there's no more days like yesterday!